Lawst at Sea

working mom

When does life begin? When does life end? Are we really living, or just alive? I’ve been questioning a lot of things about life lately. How do you ever know that you are making the right decision? What if you … Continue reading 

Things I wish I had growing up…


“You don’t give them space. Just when they tell you they don’t need you anymore is exactly when they need you most.You have to fight it. You have to show up. It’s when they’re pushing you away, it’s when they’re telling you they know better…that’s when you have to show up.” Sarah Braverman (Lauren Graham) in “Parenthood”

You never think that you wish your parents were more protective, more nosy, more involved when you are a teenager. Yet, looking back now, I wish my mom had been. I wish she had talked to me about boys and sex and life. I wish she had warned me about drugs and told me about her experiences. I just wish I had seen my mom as friend and a real person.
It seems weird to think that I will actually be stricter with my children, but I want to be. I want to tell them about the mistakes I made so that they can learn from them. I do not want to sit back and watch them make the same mistakes I made. Yes, they will make mistakes but I want to make sure that I am there to help them through.
I want to go back and relive my childhood and tell my mom that I want her to ground me, to ask where I’m going and to be able to tell when I was lying.

I just wish she had pushed back.