No one expected it to be this soon but no one can ever accurately predict when it will occur. Somehow, someway it always sneaks up on you.
Burnout. Honestly, I should have known the schedule I was trying to follow was too much but I am trying to make a great first impression. The hours I’ve been keeping may seem like heaven to some others, so I feel bad even complaining. Nonetheless, twelve-hour or more days five times a week are a lot! Add in one day each weekend and, well, it’s been hard to find my recharge.
My biggest challenge over the last couple weeks has been researching and writing an article for the senior partner that will be published. When I volunteered, I had not received a case load yet and was feeling ready to accept a challenge. However, almost the second I accepted, my case load was assigned and my schedule became ridiculously challenging to manage.
Additionally, during Thanksgiving week, everything seemed to explode. My schedule filled up and my phone always seemed to ring the second I started to make progress on a current assignment.
Although I know the schedule will not lighten up, I am hopeful that I’ll learn to deal with the crazy.
Right now the hardest part about my new career is coming to the realization that I’ll remain in poverty for the foreseeable future. My student loans will be due shortly… and well, my payments are going to be 1.5 times my rent payment! Hoping with all my heart I’ll be able to reduce my monthly payment but I’m still worried about how much interest will accrue if I do not pay the interest each month. Ugh, why wasn’t I given an idea of how much my monthly payments would be PRIOR to borrowing for law school? I would have gone part-time and worked to afford it.
Time will tell how this story plays out. Stay tuned…